This new chick on Lost is hot. Though she's apparently dead now so we might not see much of her anymore. What a shame.

I was feeling ok from Monday to Wednesday but, man, I hit a wall today. I am so freaking tired. I left work at 3:30 and napped for a couple of hours at home. I really want to sleep now but it'll totally throw off my schedule tomorrow.

It feels like my body was hit by an 18 wheeler and this morning, my throat felt like it was raked a million times over with a fork and my eyelids were glued shut. So I had a can of soup and took a five hour nap.

Anyway, my St. Patrick's Day party turned out great. An insane amount of beer was consumed and lots of fun was had. All the cleaning and organizing was worth it because now my place is much less cluttered with random crap.

Now I go back to recovering from my sickness.

So, everybody's gone now. I've had company for six hours and I think everyone had a great time. Thank you, Jen, for the spinach artichoke dip.

Man, last weeeknd was awesom. Lots of drinking, lots of laughing, a smattering of housework and I played a great hockey game on Sunday. Now I have to clean the hell out of my house the next few nights so I can party Friday and Saturday.

Oh yeah, Jack Bauer is THE MAN.

Yesterday was Get Over It Day. So whatever it is, get over it!

I know all presidents lie and smile while doing it but W is the biggest asshat of all of them.

Bush pledges to address abuses by FBI.
Oh please, does anyone actually expect he'll doing anything about this except to cover his ass?

The administration tells scientists attending international meetings not to discuss polar bears, climate change, or sea ice.
Classic W. If they don't agree with you, make sure they can't talk. What an asshole.

"Help me Lord, I've found myself in some kind of hell!" Love that shit. The last part is haunting too. "Please forgive me, I never meant to hurt you..."

I love this freaking song. I first heard it on the Chemical Brothers singles DVD and rediscovered it this week. I was actually thinking about it Sunday night (not sure why) and then I hit play on my iPod at work on Monday morning and, lo and behold, it plays this song. I've had it on repeat ever since.

The video is great too. It explains the song perfectly. I certainly know the feeling and I think many desk jockeys can relate to it too. I wish my daydreams were like this.

I'm not sure why but I recently dug out my Saloon CDs. Why the hell did you guys break up, dammit! Anyway, I never knew they had a video until today. Enjoy.

To add to the crapfest that was last night, I had to take care of some unexpected production problems from 2-3am. I guess that kinda worked out though. I was going to take a mental health day to deal with things so this gave me a legitimate reason to sleep in and work from home. Shockingly, I actually worked my ass off today. I think something went wrong in every system I ever worked on in my six year tenure. In a way, I was glad to bury myself in work because it took my mind off of yesterday.

So, yeah, 2007 is off to an inauscpicious start for me with the crap that went down yesterday, the car accident, the five figure special assessment and the recent stock market correction. The only tick in the win column so far is the insane raise and bonus I got on Friday. Still, life owes me a few more seriously big wins this year.

Tonight, I did the hardest thing that I've had to do in a few years. I've dreaded it for a while but I've known for a long time that it was going to come to this. I guess I was lying to myself and thinking that I was just being the pessismist that I am but deep down I knew how it was going to play out. I didn't want to face it until now but there was always a part of me that knew it had to be done and I finally freaking did it. I feel absolutely horrible about it and I would've given up everything I currently own and would ever own for a better outcome but life sucks and it is what it is and there's nothing we can do about it. I never believed in destiny and all that crap but on this particular night, I do. I believe it was destined to end horribly and I feel great now that I've dealt with it.

I don't know how I'll feel about it tomorrow but, mostly, I feel relieved that it's over. It was a long time coming and I feel like a billion pounds have been lifted off my chest. Mentally and emotionally, this has been the craziest weekend (plus a Monday and now, early Tuesday morning) I've had in a long time but I'm glad it's over now. I should've done this a long time ago. I guess I just didn't have the courage and I needed a swift kick in the nuts to get my ass into gear. I also needed a glass or three of Highland Park 12 Year Old Scotch, a.k.a., liquid courage to get me through it but I feel free now... free to finally move on with my life. Sorry for the vagueness but there are identities to protect and that's all the detail I'm willing to reveal in a public forum. You've probably got my email or phone number if you want to know more.

Here's to better days ahead. Consequences be damned, I finally fucking did it and I feel great. Cheers.

Edit: I'm over it.

How is it possible that Jack Bauer never has to eat, drink, pee or crap throughout the course of the entire day? Also, I guess, how is it possible that it took me five seasons to pick up on that?